- December 1st, 2012
I'm always bored, and it's starting to make me question life. What is the purpose of it? Friends, family, dreams? I think the purpose of life is love, but I don't know what love is. The love you watch in movies is obviously fake, so what is real love like? When do you find out? How much longer do I have to wait for a guy to come into my life? I am young still but my expectations for the high school I picked were a lot higher. Everyone said the school was a party high school and there are a lot of hot guys, but the freshmen guys are pussies. I was hoping to find a guy there but I haven't yet. Right now I like a sophmore, well I like him by his looks. I don't know his personality because I never talked to him, but I know him because his locker is next to mine. I don't know how to talk to him though :'((((((( Every time I see him when I'm not at my locker, he's talking to a girl. Not the same girl every time, but the girls are "okay looking". Maybe he doesn't judge by looks, I'm hoping. I'm not the most attractive girl, but I can't be perfect. The problem is is that when you're not so very attractive, it's harder to catch a guy's attention. I can't catch his attention by what I wear because we must wear uniform, and also I wouldn't want to be seen as a whore. I don't want a guy that wants me for my body either. I wish there was a guy that had balls to come up to me and ask me on a date. In this century guys only have balls when they're texting. It's sad </3 I've been trying to make my guy friend to ask a girl out on a date because I know that's what a girl wants. Of course, he's a pussy too. He's not that bad as other guys though.
This entry goes from one thought to another but writing it down makes it easier for me to think.